Beyond the Veil of Sais (2008)
(Vertical Triptych of Ego)
oil on canvas 60x80 cm.
Even though it was an enlightening revelation when I read it for the
first time, I never really believed in the Sigmund Freud’s schematic
model of human psyche divided in ID, Ego and Super
Ego. Actually since my childhood I felt the presence of many more
entities and forces inside myself, which weren’t so easily classifiable
‘cause over the years they continuously kept exchanging and merging
between themselves. A useful method to project some of them out of my
mind was a solitary role game with which I managed to let them speak and
act through my voice and body. Two of the most recognizable figures
among those molded by this peculiar ritual, were those of my sister and
my twin brother, projections of the female and irrational shades of my
own personality.
When I grew up and I quit playing that game the
outlandish feeling of being surrounded by these “alter ego” never
completely abandoned me: somehow giving them a fictional and
iconographic life into my novels, movies, drawings and paintings has
become the most effective surrogate to that role game. In the last few
years the growing need to achieve a spiritual completeness through a
real woman transformed them into the members of a mystical family living
within my soul: consequently my twin brother became my son and my
sister became my wife, thus recreating the Trinitarian structure of
Freud’s theory as well as that one of religions such as Christianism,
Hinduism, and particularly Egyptian consisting of the god Serapis, the
goddess Isis and the child-god Horus.
The divine process of
creativity allows to shape a symbolic shrine to contain and enhance the
multitude of Ego haunting us for a lifetime.
